Journaling

I need to jot down a few thoughts memories over the past couple weeks for posterity sake. Summer has come too fast and for some reason I have been cringing a bit for it's arrival. Maybe it's because my little boy will be starting kindergarten, maybe it's because I know it will go by too fast, maybe it's because the garden I've been dreaming of won't get planted or maybe it's because I want to stand still in time just for a moment holding my baby girl while talking about what some of my favorite things were from my childhood with my son.

This month of June started with Grant loosing his first tooth. He's growing so fast and in August will start all day kindergarten. It has taken me a long while to get used to the fact that he will be starting school and even longer that he will go all day (they have all day kindergarten here as apposed to 1/2 day-like they do in Oregon and what I'm used to calling normal...don't get me started on this topic.) I am excited for Grant and this new adventure and opportunity school will bring. He will do great and I feel he is ready in many ways. This thought of him starting school and not being at home with me started to linger in my head today and I was talking with a friend about the rush of fear I had suddenly. Have I done enough to prepare him? Have we done all those fun things I dreamed I would do having my child home with me these past five years? Have I done a good enough job to prepare him to leave the home and enter a place where peer pressure will be in full force? Have I helped mold him to recognize his worth and strengths? I still wonder...and wish I could turn back time to have more minutes with this little guy.

If one asked, I would have to say Grant loves life among other things; He is an inquisitive and curious person. He enjoys learning, especially from his dad. He loves to be a helper and loves to feel he is helping. One of his favorite things to do is play with other kids. He is a cuddler. He loves his baby sister, he "can barely stand it." He is apprehensive about new situations and gets that from me. He is social and enjoys people, he gets that from Mark. He loves cars and any kind of transportation vehicles, particularly emergency ones and vintage ones. He can mimic a siren perfectly. He loves to be outside. He loves to have books read to him, especially by his dad. He wants to be just like his dad when he grows up. He give great head massages and squeezes. He fits perfectly in our family and I have always felt he was sent to us at the perfect moment. I love him immensely.



The week before our trip home Grant had swim lessons from a friend. She was wonderful and did such a great job one on one with him. He is now more confident and willing to try new things and is that much closer to swimming. Our travels were good out to Oregon and I've posted about most of the trip via pictures. We enjoyed family, visiting and laughing together. Grant loved every single second playing with his cousins.

Grace is growing every day; over the past weeks she is smiling much more, talking and screeching and has started hitting objects with her hands. She loves her little play thing she lays under...she can entertain herself for quite sometime. I find this very helpful! She loves to smile at Grant. She continues to be a great little sleeper and eats all day making up for the long nights without food. She enjoys looking around with her big owl eyes and is taking in life. Don't you just want to squeeze her?